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What a silent september, aight?

The month of ramadhan / raya. I wont talk about that, even though that's the BEST part of my life EVERY year. Every. Single. Year.

I wont talk much, but I just wanna talk bout today. Two things:

1- I thought I saw Sakeenah in in the living room minutes before I slept. She was mumbling bout something I don't really care of. I am VERY sure about this. So, this is the first time I'm hallucinating, or I just saw a real-time ghost. Hahahaha.

2. - I am having constant minor pressure on my heart. Every single time when I'm tired, when I'm trying to swallow something, I had some minor pain when it passes near my heart. In which I don't really care of.

Work's going to be amazing :D I have never seen a moment in my life where it could be so flawless like THIS. Last week, Syakirah asked me bout this: "kenapa u taknak keluar dgn i? u mmg anti dgn pompuan ke?".



Sometime around raya, Reen told me something like this: "siddiq u really need to do something about yourself. your health, your personal feelings, yourself. its all blocked and frozen hard. i have never seen a guy who had a complete control of this, who can actually widthstand anything regarding these. the way i hang around with you, its bullshit to say that there's no one likes you. you disregard them. i know, there's something wrong with your health. i can see it from your everyday's life. you have accomplished far better than anyone else that I know, but you choose to live by this sick protocol you chose to set by yourself. i have never, yet, seen any guy who could actually allow his life to become like this. nasib baik i have my boyfriend right now, if not, i'm going to help you once and for all.

siddiq, please. from my eyes, you're that perfect guy every girl is seeking. you have a great mind. you have a very great personality. you have a great looks, but you didn't care about it either. please siddiq"

it ends with her crying for 1 minute. i am totally speechless that the moment. the facts are very accurate. u know what i told to her?

"reen sorry. i x boleh buat apa2 regarding my life. your facts are true, tapi still... (5 seconds hold) i can't do anything".

i smiled and i left. i don't really know whether what I'm doing is right or wrong.

20/8/2009 -- nevar forget. Accounts from the christian site www.faithwriters.com was pwned and can be accessed here (courtesy of google cache. thread 404'ed)

http://74.125.93.132/search?q=cache:DzHmjbVYYoUJ:hkfjbmo2rdjun56b.tor2web.com/i/res/72.html

=)

so as usual, facebook clobbering time ensued afterwards. by using their username/password, we then showed unified strength BWAHAHAHAHA